Gaea

I have no official religion.  I might be part of a group of people, but I don’t know what the name of it might be.  So this is basically what I believe in.  First, from what I have seen and heard, god is a variable.  No man, women, or event has ever proven who or what god is.  Since god is a variable, I think I can choose whomever the hell I want as my god.  I was a Buddhist at first, but when I realized that god is a variable, I chose Sephiroth as my first new god.  I was playing Final Fantasy VII at the time and the only anime I knew was Dragon Ball Z.  So Sephiroth was the first one to come to my mind as someone for me to worship.  He did an exceptional job, but he kind of screwed me over.  I had a miniature pinscher dog named Laura.  I loved that dog more than everyone in my house combined.  She “got” out one night according to my father.  I never saw her again.  Because Sephiroth never got me any compensation or got her to come back, I dropped him as my god.  I thought about the next god I should worship for a few days.  I finally decided on Ayu Tsukimiya from the anime Kanon.  Soon after, I went to Little Tokyo in Los Angeles and decided to buy a Japanese NewType magazine.  I had no idea that inside the issue I got, was a pull out poster of Ayu.  Upon finding this, I quickly posted the poster up on my wall.  Ayu-sama has been my god now for about eight months.  I doubt she is going to screw me over.  If she can make one special event happen before the end of this school year, she will pretty much have the job of being my god for the rest of my life.  This event is a very specific one, but I will not disclose information about it until it happens.  So that’s is what is up with my beliefs.

Another thing is, I believe in fate/destiny.  Everyone has certain events that are supposed to happen.  Death is pretty much everyone’s fate.  What you do in-between the time of your birth and death is your decision.  When you reach an understanding about your life, you should do whatever you feel is right.  Whether you want to succeed and become the head of your own business or you want to kick back and smoke some weed with your friends, it’s your decision.  The general public has a belief of what is right and what is wrong.  However, what the majority of the people think is right is not a fact that should be followed.  Neither is what the majority of the people think is wrong.  There are rewards and consequences for actions you take.  Those kids that shot up the Columbine school, (The following is just my opinion just like this whole article.) they felt the need to do what they did.  They chose that path and died.  The shooting was destined to happen.  You could say that “if so and so did that” they wouldn’t have been in that mess, but “so and so didn’t do that” and “that did happen.”  You can’t change the past. (I’ll get into time travel somewhere below.)  Paths are already set down right in front of us.  Which ones people will take are up to them and their environment.

I also believe in reincarnation.  The soul is, as far as I am concerned, indestructible.  Every being that dies, has its soul returned to something that recycles the soul and is born again.  Born as what depends on what is happening with the planet.  I think our population problem is in a direct relation to what humans are doing to the Earth.  As humans use up resources and kill off more and more plants and animals, the number of people will increase.  Also, the soul has mates.  Notice that I typed “mates.”  The number of mates your soul has will always be a mystery.  How many you find in this lifetime is another.

I also believe that your life will fit into 3 general categories.  The first one is called “Ying-Yang.”  This type of fate is where throughout your life, you have equal amounts of good things happening and bad things happening.  This fate-type has two sub-categories of its own.  One is where your entire first part of life is bad, and then your entire second life is all good.  The other is where good things and bad things happen in series.  There are many examples of the “Ying-Yang” fate-type.  I think I belong in the “Ying-Yang” category.  The second is called “Piece of cake.”  Your life is pretty much all good and only little sad things happen.  I consider Bill Gates to have this fate-type.  The last is “You’re screwed.”  Your life is more than likely to be very short.  If not, you can pretty much expect bad thing after bad thing to happen.

Here are some of my thoughts about other stuff.  I think time travel is possible.  The machine that transports you would have to make you and the machine step outside of time.  Once you are out of the boundaries of time, you won’t forget things or gain knowledge as you move through time.  The machine won’t disassemble itself or become advanced either.  Once stepping out of time boundaries is accomplished, I believe it will be possible to go backwards and forward in time.  Because of fate, anything you do in the past or future will not have the effect that one would hope to get.  So if someone was destined to go back in time, and he was destined to do something that he thought would change the future, nothing would really change because that person was destined to do something that made it so that the future would stay the same.  Don’t understand?  On one of the new Twilight Zone episodes, a woman is sent back in time to kill the baby that would be Adolph Hitler.  When she did kill him, the maid of the family took another baby from the streets that looked like him and it was that baby who turned out to be the Hitler we knew.  So the women that went back in time didn’t change the future.  She only ensured that it stayed the same.

The human mind is the last subject someone should listen to me talk about.  The following will probably offend a lot of people, but if you went to the trouble of getting to read this, I think you and I might be on the same page.
I dislike men.  They are idiots and morons.  I am a guy, but I am not a man.  I am a nerd.  Men have this idiocy around them that just disgust me.  What disgust me more is that a lot of girls are attracted to these men.  This brings me to another theory I have about people.  The majority of people have too much sociality going on with their lives.  People wanting to socialize give up a special sense that tells them to look outside the box.  I call this the “Moron Theory.”  This is what gets people into doing stupid things.  You know when I first heard about the planes hitting the World Trade Centers; I was laughing my ass off.  The fact that terrorist were able to hijack a plane with a bunch of people on board without a gun or bomb is so stupid.  Out of four planes, only one had people smart enough to do the right thing.  I also laughing to myself whenever I hear about people being surprised terrorist would go this far.  This terrorist plot is hardly something complicated to pull off.  This was something I could have thought of myself.  I could be just like everyone else and be a moron, but my sense of self-dignity greatly outweighs my want to be liked by other people.  There are other nerds that are also affected by the Moron Theory.  They too are just as stupid in the way they act and the way they talk about things.  I don’t think that I’m like some superior being and that all these “morons” should be worshiping me, but I understand that people are who they are.  Whatever shall be will be.  I am in no way a vocal person, and I have never thrust my beliefs onto anyone.  I absolutely hate anyone who tries to forcefully change who you are.  There is only one person who can do that, and that is yourself.

I hate teaching things most of the time.  This is a huge reason why I hate kids.  This is also why I do not want to have children.  I hate hearing that I used to be a kid.  So fucking what!  If I had to go back in time and baby-sit my younger self, I’d probably punch my younger self after a few seconds of him being hyper.

My social theories:  “Pure,” “Hybrid,” and the “Tri-brid.”
Normal humans have 3 general areas of qualities: their brains, their physical stuff, and their social stuff.  The amount of these things can change anywhere between daily to yearly or not at all.
Brains is obviously your intelligence and wisdom.  Physical stuff are things like your health, strength, and reflexes.  Social stuff are your charm and abilities to converse with people.  Everyone has different amounts of each.  I, myself, have a large amount of brains and very little physical stuff.  I have an insignificant amount of social stuff.  Thus, I am a “Pure.”  (This wasn’t so about 9 or 10 years.  Before, I had a huge amount of social stuff.  With the little brains I had, I was able to reassess the amounts.)  Pures basically have only a large amount of one thing.
Hybrids have equal and large amounts of 2 of the 3 things.  In most cases, it will be physical stuff and social stuff.
The Tri-brid is very uncommon.  Someone who has large amounts of all 3 things.
Further analysis goes into the stable and unstable types.
Stable types are people who have the unchanged amounts for long periods of time.  Their environment has little to no effect to change their amounts.
Unstable types are people who can change between pure and hybrid.  Their environment can, and usually will, change the amounts.
With this, I explain to myself why and how people socialize.  It’s pretty useless to other people.
Example: My friend, who I will call Muffinman, is an unstable brains and social hybrid.

Okay, lets get to some bigger stuff.  I believe that there is an organization called the Illuminati, and I believe they are controlling what goes on in the world to a certain extent.  What extent?  I don’t know.

I believe HIV/AIDS was allowed to be released to control the human population.  Whoever found it was a little off their rocker and thought that this is what could solve overpopulation.  With all I heard of the origin of HIV/AIDS, I believe that this is the reason why it was allowed to spread. 

The Bible, that all the different type of Christians read, to me seems like it was a project by some aliens.  I think aliens played around with early civilization.  They gave humans some advanced knowledge to start us off and interfered with humans whenever they felt like it.  The further humans advanced, the less they interfered and just watched over Earth.  The Roswell incident was covered up by the Illuminati.

Sometime ago, I said I was going to put a “Shoju Dictionary” up.  I’m too lazy to create another thing for it, so I’m just going to put it here.  The following words are defined by me.  To me, this is what these words mean.

Potential – This is a stupid word.  Everything has the potential to do/become something, and when I say everything, I mean everything single piece of matter in the whole fucking universe.
Examples:
You have persons A, B, and C.  A is a person with intelligence and charisma, B is a retard, and C is a chimpanzee.  Let’s say they are all 12 years old.  As long as they are alive, they have the potential to do or become anything.  A could become the next president of the U.S., but so could B.  B is retarded, but does that mean B can never surpass the limits that are thought by everyone else?  C is not even human, but C could also become president.  Something could happen to C that makes him a sentient being.  Who has any proof that it can’t happen?
Everything has potential.  Telling someone that they have potential means jack shit.  You can look at their current environments, behavior, and any other signs, and then you can make estimates of what they can or can’t do.  However, you can only make estimates.  You do not know the exact future.  It is very unlikely that a 70 lbs. piece of rock will suddenly come to life and terrorize the world, but there is still a possibility of it happening.

Luck – In terms of competing, there is no such thing as luck.  You either win or you lose.

Hate – This is a word thrown around too much.  To truly hate someone, is to completely ignore them, but if the chance to kill him/her ever came up(and you could legally get away with it), you would do it without thinking.  Hating someone and always talking shit about them for a very long period of time is not true hatred.  This is envy.

Let’s see.  I also believe the “heart” is humans’ greatest weakness.  Depending on the person’s will, it could also manifest their greatest strength.  The “heart” is a very dangerous thing to play with.  Should you decide to take it upon yourself to mess with someone’s heart, you must be prepared to face that person as if he/she were a god.  Never ever underestimate a person’s strength when their heart is involved.  Underestimating could lead you to your demise.
I think I wrote somewhere in my profile that I didn’t have a heart.  The truth is I do have such a thing.  For people who do not have a “heart,” their greatest weaknesses vary greatly from person to person.

Well, this is it for now.  I am coming up on my 17^th year of living.  What I have written above are some of the things I have come to believe about life, the universe, and everything else.  To think the way I do, I have given up on a great social life with many friends and a good romantic life with the ladies.  Though I know that I will be alone in my future, I would never want anything else.  I guess I’ll finish this article with a quote.  I have no idea who said it though.

“If you think you know everything there is to know, you have failed.” ~ Unknown

If you just scrolled to the bottom and didn’t want to read any of what I wrote, you could just take Douglas Adam’s answer to life, the universe, and everything:  42.